“Music is a moral law. It gives soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination, and charm and gaiety to life and to everything.”—Plato (via erraticone). (via quote-book) (via hariokid)
“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before, she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect – your aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break – her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.”—Bob Marley (via quote-book)
this day was quite the day. the day of my first date with Michelle Nguyen; basically my first date ever (i don’t get around haha).
so i woke up that day with one of those good morning texts. haha great right? but when i get my reply, she tells me that her parents won’t let her go. this is due to the fact that her parents know she likes me (she told them about me, nice right?), and that no one else was going. maan i was bummed. so i prayed: “God, please let me be able to go on our date today. please, i really want to see her.” that prayer went a long way.
so while anxiously waiting for her reply to come out as a "yes my parents will let me! :)," i did chores to get my mind off of it. i was basically prepping myself for that NO. so i did that from 1-5.
around 6ish, i text her, “any progress?” she replies back saying “yeah, now we’re having family night at westgate.” gah! so i’m all like fuuu! God you’re being a comedian right now. we both decided it’d be best to post-pone til next weekend.
i then stay behind while my little brother skips to westgate with his girlfriend. i was bummed, but not sad; i was preparing for this. but then guess who comes along? my effing bestfriend to the fucking rescue! he tells me that he knows what’s going on (through a mutual friend) and tells me that he’s got me.
NEW PLAN. Michelle still goes to westgate with family, but 4 of her friends that i kinda sorta know also go. that way she can branch off and go on a date with me. fricken sweet :]
so after i got done getting ready, the homie @laurenzelizaga gives me a ride there (thank you very much). I end up waiting at Westgate for a good 20 min; full of anticipation. until i made my rounds back to the theater i saw saw here and her cousin and sister. so i walked all the way around to coldstone. for surely i see them, but her parents were right there. haha so i quickly turned around and hid.
i was able to meet with Michelle after waiting for her parents to go off. i swear when i walked in the theater, it was one of those movie scenes where when you walk through the door a gust of wind would blow against your hair and face. to add, she also ran to me in excitement. haha
so then, i buy our tickets to watch Scott Pilgrim Vs. The Wolrd. but we head to coldstone for a bit. we get icecream and we just had good talk and conversation.
when we watched the movie, it was the classic scene of the hand holding and leaning against one another. simply amazing :)
After the movie was over, it was fucking raining! ;) haha. perfect moment and situation. so we walk over to this awesome fountain and the magic happens. kissing in the rain :) it was so unexpected.
the night ended with her having to leave first. i will never forget that night <3 :)
I can’t listen to that run-down, overplayed Drake and Nicki Minaj with a few spits of Gucci Mane nonsense constantly yelling about “money, alcohol, and badb1tch3s”, Trey Songz’ overzealous (and clearly sexually confused) self yammering about how he thinks he’s king of the sex world, collaborated…
Especially when it’s directed at my mom.
like today, i was in the kitchen just getting water, and my mom asks me to check the pot on the stove to see if it’s still hot. instead of having the decency to do it without getting flustered, i sharp tongue my mom saying stuff like ‘i already did so much for you today!; i’m tired; i’m about to sleep, so on and so forth. i was tired though from working out, but it was rude of me to act the way i did. i’ll dp things better tomorrow.
i’m getting all giddy and mushy just cuz i talked to the girl i like today.
eehh it’s basically our first real conversation, cuz we’ve never really got the chance to kick it or anything. but it’s a start so i guess that’s why i’m real happy :) well let’s hope tomorrow i’ll do things better.
but today was nice. i could really tell that she felt the same way about me. when we walked towards each other she immediately ran for a hug. it’s a great feeling knowing that someone feels the same way you do.
today at church i realized that i’ve been blessed by God.
after my last girlfriend in freshmen year, i’ve always been in situations where my feelings were unrequited. all those girls always had something tying them down; had a boyfriend, another interest, another boyfriend, made me their bestfriend, not ready. all these reasons that prevented me from getting any closer. it was very disappointing.
so whenever i went to church or before i went to sleep, i’d pray. i’d pray hard that some girl (someone cute, smart, honest, kind, etc.) would like me for me. you know, all that corny ish. haha
recently, God has blessed me with someone just like that. heaven sent i guess :) haha.”i’ve got your attention; that’s half of the battle.” it’s too soon to say she’s my ideal, but i can tell she’s the right one. i’m very happy at the moment haha
so when i realized it at church today, i was extremely grateful and gracious to god for what has happened. all that’s left is to win her heart :)
it seems whenever i try to make plans, something comes raining down on my parade. it pisses me off.
so my plans for tomorrow is for a movie night at my house; it’s special cuz i’ve never hosted anything at my house, and hardly anyone has ever been inside haha.
i’ve invited a lot of close friends over, and i hope that the majority will make it. i know for a fact my brother’s girl will make it cuz, let’s face it; they’re in love. haha i hope my sis will make it but i’m unsure cuz she’s coming back from her road trip from michigan. the homie might not make it cuz if my sis doesn’t then he won’t. my bes won’t make it cuz she’s fucking mia; haven’t been able to contact her in a week. my friend sam, idk cuz i’m pretty sure she’s gonna be occupied or whatever. i invited the girl i’m interested in, but she’s probably not gonna make it cuz she’s coming back from cali tomorrow.
BUUT! my friend jem said she’ll be able to make it after her youth activity, and if my friend julia’s plans to work tomorrow then she’ll come! woo. i’m getting excited.